one last cry, before i leave it all behind. never regret and never should

i can smile in fake now.
perhaps tomorrow i will have a BIGGEST SMILE than yours

i'm not crying now but may be soon. i don't like the way i feel right now. still a hopeless and loser. i'm afraid if i loose again just like before. i want to be on top, like others. i don't want disappointed both of my parents anymore. please GOD. i don't want to be another biggest loser.



ma abah, please pray for my education so that i can bear all this weakness, all the stress and all the bad things. i want to make both of you proud.

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